Your silence cuts through me like a knife
The lack of words between us is the problem
The reacuring sadness we share

I wish I could just tell you
Break the silence and fix it all
But every time I try the words stop, stuck
Somewhere between my brain and my mouth

I've tried a thousand times
But the words wont come
You seem so happy
I don't want to ruin that with my own concerns

I just want to make you happy
To be the person you want me to be
To give you what you want
No matter the cost

So I push all this deep down inside
Hopping that if I ignore it long enough, it will go away
Following the same pattern I always do
Doomed to forever be stuck with this hidden secret
This hidden pain

Your silence cuts throgh me like a knife
But I do nothing to break it
Nothing to make it stop
I just sit back like a good little girl
Hidding away the pain
Hidding away the problem
Thinking that if I hide it, if no one sees it
It just might go away